Six dollars in the newly-minted "Healthy Day Jar." Six bucks in seven days. Thanks for the idea, Jess.
I intended to cheat today. I thought that maybe I'd go to the gym before weighing in, or leave some of the food that I ate yesterday out of today's writing. I was mildly unhappy at wake-up time today, and I thought that perhaps I would feel better if I could nudge the facts around a little to better suit me. I changed my mind... and all it took was a few words of kindness and encouragement from friends. I feel better.
So. Yesterday. I'm not sure why I ate the way I did, I was having a good day... I guess that I'm able at any time to completely ignore the fact that I really want to eat in a structured manner. I went six days without slipping; this time I think I'll shoot for seven or eight. What I want to do now is list the foods I ate yesterday in order that I might get a better look.
One smallish bowl of Total cereal with Soy Juice (I like it, but can't yet bring myself to call it milk).
One sandwich... bread, avocado, nuts, ham, onions, tomatoes.
One bowl of baked chicken and veggies with soy sauce, jalapeno mustard and cilantro.
Three slices of pizza, easy on the cheese.
One bowl containing the following: hot dog bun, two hot dogs, a big ladle of turkey chili, sour cream, cheese.
Three handfuls of lite corn chips.
Several chip-sized scoops of guacamole.
One cookie.
First half of the day: awesome. Second half of the day: lead balloon. Right. Sigh... back up on the horse today. I'm going to meet a friend at the gym this afternoon to work some tae kwon do forms. And lift weights.
Another good idea from Jess: changing my concept of "reward" to simply a positive association with a certain behavior. So, what I did was this: I created a Healthy Day Jar into which I will deposit money when I have had a healthy-eating day. I made it retroactive, too, so that I could spotlight the six really good days that came before yesterday.
Now... I've been honest with myself and you about yesterday, but not used it as a weapon against myself. I also highlighted the good work in the week prior. So, what do you think? Progress?
Steve "Big Daddy" Hodgson
February the eighth, 2010
299.4 pounds
Hi doll! As someone with the same constant conversation myself, you are awesome!
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Thanks, Love! I miss you.
ReplyDeleteYes, progress! Everyday it is a constant inner discussion and you know what there are certain events that we overindulge... it is what we do with it later that really matters...like not beating yourself up, or punishing yourself...in the words of what about Bob..."baby steps...." So, what the money in the jar go to? Perhaps you should have a contest on your blog and see what your peeps think?! Keep up the good work and way to recover with a trip to the gym. with love sheryl and the puppies
ReplyDeleteAh, I have had many MANY days just like that. They start off so innocent and healthy, only to succumb to that evil temptress, the Dairy Fairy, late in the day. There is just something so soul satisfying about melted cheese and sour cream. I haven't yet figured out what healthier options will scratch that itch. Sometimes I'll eat more "better" food while avoiding that which I really want, thus defeating the purpose. When you figure out what shuts up that damn Dairy Fairy, PLEASE let me know...before you sell the secret and make millions.
ReplyDeleteLove the new wall paper. And yes, progress. Words are powerful...try not to use them Against yourself.
ReplyDeleteAnd I thought you might like this. Vulgar, but totally Awesome (that's Lewis Black for you).
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOLFo9Aoomw
Jess, I LOVE Lewis Black. That clip is why I use the term "Soy Juice." But I can say it without gagging.
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