Me with my brother and sisters in Atlanta, shortly before I began the weight loss. Note the strategic placement of the Stetson... moobs covered? Check. Gut hidden? Check. You may proceed.Chapter 11: some random thoughts
Friday again. I'm not as concerned with work today as I was last week. I mean, I'm still intending to devote my full attention while there, but I'm not all bound up over what may or may not challenge me. It's a matter of control for me. Here's the thing: I have absolutely no control over what other people do. The only thing I have control over is what I do... and sometimes even that is a little iffy if I'm not paying close enough attention. So, what I think is very important for me is to be as aware as I can of how I'm feeling and reacting to things that are beyond my control. Where is my reaction coming from? If I want to react poorly, is my ego bruised? Am I threatened in some way? What is the course of action that I can follow that will promote the most harmony and workplace effectiveness?
It is difficult, but important, to consider these and questions like these in the moment. I don't actually know how to do that yet. So what I have to do is back off. I have to have a little time to consider. I have noticed that if I keep my yapper shut for a little while and think a particular situation over, I'm more able to reach a conclusion that is constructive. Maybe, with a little time and practice, I'll get faster.
With my eating, considerations like the above are incredibly important. I have to give myself time to know what's really happening with me before I react to it. Learning to just sit there and think about it when I want to eat is a huge challenge, but it's working more often than not. I may have written this before, but I have come to this conclusion: when I want to eat, especially crazy gross things, it is almost never because I am hungry. I'm just as likely to have a fast-food craving when I'm full as when I'm hungry... it's almost purely emotional / psychological. Whoosh... it can be kind of a mess in my head. But I'm looking into the problem. It helps to get it on the cyber-page, without a doubt.
So... today I feel like I have a pretty good chance of making good decisions. I may not get every one exactly right, but I bet most of them will be positive. Bring it on, Friday. Humpday Schmumpday.
You can bring every heavyweight ya got; I got a lad here can beat the whole lot.
-The Big Strong Man
As always, peace and love to you all.
Steve "Big Daddy" Hodgson
February the twelfth, 2010
293.6 pounds
Be careful about keeping your yapper shut for too long or people might think you will explode...unless of course you are using this fear as a weapon hehe.
ReplyDeleteI'm with ya. I think once you get into the habit of being aware of Why you react a certain way (anger, pride, defensiveness, etc), it's easier to change your reactions. It's about becoming so Zen or Tibetan-monk-on-the-mountain that people's opinions and such just Can't affect you any more.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I'm not quite there either :D
I crave fast food a lot too, and yeah, it's rarely hunger. I usually try to remember that my tummy doesn't actually handle it too well, and I feel so much better when I get home knowing I've saved money & health points.
Sort of like an old fashioned RPG :D You build up your HP... yeah. Dork. Tgif. Even though retail exists on Saturdays... love!