Big Jule.
I am now certain that I've taken on too much. In my defense, when I agreed to perform in Guys & Dolls, I didn't know that my workload was going to increase as much as it has. Don't get me wrong here... I like to work and I like my job. But 45-50 hours per week plus rehearsing the show plus trying to lose weight just isn't working. I get to a point in the evening where I'm so tired that my body actually feels like it's vibrating... at a very strange frequency. When I get to that stage, any thoughts of eating well simply aren't there; I just want some comforting food and sleep. Luckily, I'm still very focused during the day, so I haven't gained any weight (two-tenths of a pound)... I'm just sort of in a holding pattern until I can calm my schedule down a little.
Overall, I have been in a positive mood. I'm optimistic about my life in general and my weight loss in specific... I just need to arrange my life so that I can avoid, whenever possible, becoming so exhausted that I no longer care what I eat.
Now I have to go learn lines.
Let's shoot crap.
Steve "Big Daddy" Hodgson
March the seventh, 2010
286.4 pounds
I hear ya...yesterday I ate more than I should - nothing fattening but I didn't listen to the sign on my fridge that says "Are you REALLY hungry!" I just thought fuck you sign...but today I have put that behind me as a slight "opps" and will continue on the path to a healthy life style. I found a one women script that I want to do so badly - intellectually, emotionally and spiritually I can do it - but physically - not even close! So this is my rainbow at the end of the storm - my motivation to keep on the right path! You are moving in the right direction - pace yourself (seriously) I don't want you dropping dead before you reach your goal - and besides, I don't have time for a funeral! Love you so much, Steve...Doreen
ReplyDeleteI keep a fat photo of myself in my cube with "STAY OUT OF THE M&MS" written in bright orange ink. Holding pattern is good. Slow and steady wins the race.
ReplyDeleteStay focused Big Daddy! Life gets in the way of our goals all the time, but try to stay positive and remember all the reasons you are doing this. I believe in you!!
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